I Sang a Song

You are my rock and my salvation;

To you I’ll always cling.

I am not invisible or unknown

But hidden in the shadow of Your wings.

You set a table for us

Before all our enemies

and when I cry out to You, Lord,

You always answer me!

My rock and salvation.

You always answer me.

You always answer me.

You say to me, “Seek my face.”

Oh Lord, Your face I seek!

You bring me Peace and Hope;

Only Your praise will I sing.

You are my rock.

I’ll cling to You.

You are my salvation.

All You speak is Truth.

And You always answer me.

You hear my cries.

You always answer.

My rock and salvation.

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Steady Heart

I am constantly in the process of being humbled and amazed, and it is wonderful.

Do you know how much, in my journey from my life before God to a life lived with God, I petitioned him to know the end game? To reveal to me the places where we were going together? And I was given hints but the majority of the time it was one step at a time. Infuriating, frustrating, and aggravating.

But so, so good. It revealed God’s faithfulness. It deepened our relationship. I was shown my vast capacity to trust in God and to rest in love. I found myself as I was seeking God and discovered what I was made of: love, compassion, empathy and hope. I found freedom in becoming the person I was designed to be and found healing and restoration in my body, heart and soul. I discovered faith is less a destination than a journey, and the beauty in it is astounding.

 

Desiring Relationship or Desiring Someone

Someone wanted to talk to me earlier this week about relationships, particularly the hold that the bad ones have on us and the fight it takes to get free. This last time for me it didn’t take long to recognize the difference between missing RELATIONSHIP and missing the guy I had been in a relationship with, but there is freedom in knowing what you really desire versus confusing it with someone who might be a habit or a crutch.

See, there’s a super good reason I’m not with any of the guys I’ve ever dated, whether that was a choice I made or they did. It’s done and I want healing for them and me. I want each of us to be successful and healthy in our next relationship. But that can be hard sometimes, particularly if it was a rather toxic relationship. You want to sit and feel like… half of Ed Sheeran’s albums.

Photograph – Ed Sheeran (Boyce Avenue feat. Bea Miller acoustic cover)

But the fact is, and I’m not a big T-Swift fan, we need shake it off.  Learn from the past and move on from it because that relationship is DEAD and all we are doing is wasting time.

Taylor Swift – Shake It Off

And once you’ve shaken it off, don’t forget. Don’t backtrack. You’re at a great place: where you realize it’s good to be alive and things are pretty amazing… people will start to notice that about you.

Andy Grammer – Good To Be Alive (Hallelujah) (Official Music Video)

A Few Songs

As a preface, I don’t know a ton of Christian music and it’s because I’m super purposeful about when and where I listen to it. I don’t like it as background music because I don’t want to become desensitized to the meaning of what is being said or what I am saying to God. That’s certainly not how everyone encounters music; it’s just the way I am around this type of music. That means that a lot of my music comes from recommendations or worship experiences.  Here’s a few that are really resonating with me in my times of prayer and worship:

Even When It Hurts (Praise Song) Live – Hillsong UNITED

I know there’s abundance happening in a lot of spaces in my life and so it might seem like a contradiction but this song? It feels like it’s been the song of my heart the last few months.

No Longer Slaves // Jonathan David & Melissa Helser // We Will Not Be Shaken Official Lyric Video

I love so much of this, but one of my favorite lines is, “You split the sea so I could walk right through it, my fears were drowned in  perfect love; You rescued me so I could stand and sing, ‘I am a child of God…'”

Pieces (Official Lyric Video) // Brave New World // Amanda Cook

“It isn’t shy, it’s unashamed, You’re love is proud to be seen with me. You don’t give your heart in pieces, You don’t hide yourself to tease us. Uncontrolled, uncontained, Your love is a fire burning bright for me…”